I was sitting there with my eyes closed, waiting for one of the more spiritually mature members of the group to speak a profound word or scripture (as you do) and the next thing I knew, my mouth opened and I was talking. Babbling. Crying (yea ok, this part was not new, I cry about everything). And I had no idea what I was going to say, so I was hearing it for the first time as the words came out of my mouth. It was a short and simple sentence, but I only just managed to get it out, and I literally felt a strong force leaving from my chest and out through my mouth. I was gulping for air. And did I mention I was crying?
I have experienced many times before while seeking God, having a phrase placed into my heart. But my head had always instantaneous picked it up, and that was where it stayed. I had never public shared these words, but acknowledged privately the revelation from God. But this time, my brain was definitely kept out of the loop. From God to lungs or heart (somewhere in my chest cavity) and out my mouth. The word "awesome" is overused and often misused. This time I feel it is really appropriate. I was truly filled with awe. I am still filled with awe. There are no other words, but "wow". I have always known that God speaks in different ways to and through different people, but I was reminded tonight in a most bizarre way that I still have so much to step into in terms of my spiritual growth, and in terms of knowing God more intimately. There are fantastic mysteries to be explored with God.
The recipient of the message said it was spot on with what she was struggling with mentally, and thanked me over and over. But I forward that thanks back to the owner of those words (hi God, I know you privately follow my blog). Thank you for allowing me to be a part of that experience. Thank you that you are.
Not to us, Lord, not to us
but to your name be the glory
[Psalm 115:1]
